Monday, May 17, 2010

My little oaks

While looking at old blog posts and listening to hymns today, I sobbed. My kids are getting so big.

Caleb has beautiful cursive, is bright, thoughtful, loves animals and has a strong moral compass. He asks BIG questions. Things I have never even thought about before. While discussing evolution and the different theories he says, “So if their theory is that we evolve, what will we evolve into next?” Um, right? What will we evolve into next? Of course, I have no answers for him other than my standard, “Let’s ask Daddy when he gets home.” That child keeps me on my toes and some days can be mentally exhausting, but I can’t imagine life without him.

Luke, mercy, that child is something. His eyes melt my heart. He is so happy-go-lucky, simple, generous, funny and happy. He loves Caleb and so wants to be big like him. He definitely has the “middle child” thing going on where he likes to point out all the ways that he is either different or better than someone else. He has such a simple heart, loves to tell his sisters about God and has such an excitement for life. Lukie is the child that will have me frustrated beyond belief in second and in the next laughing…hard!

Oh, and then my sweet little sisters. Gosh, how I love them. Tomorrow is their big birthday. They have NO idea. I’ll wait until Saturday morning, the day of their party, to decorate their room. They are so funny, I have no idea if the decorated room when they wake to will scare them or make them happy? They are so fragile at times. SO girlie.

I was telling some friends the other day that Motherhood has really defined the word “bittersweet” for me. Tomorrow is another bittersweet moment. My baby girls turn 3. Gosh. Three. Wow.

Sweet Savior,
I don’t know why you chose me, with all my faults, as mama to these amazing, gorgeous children, but thank you. I’m a mess most of the time. And I can’t hide it from you or from these little lovies. Yet, you all still love me. I know I don’t deserve that love and am so humbled by it. Thank you for my little people. My heart is overwhelmed with thanks. Please, Lord, continue to grow these little oaks strong. Firmly rooted in your Word and love. And may they always know that I love them with all that I am. And that is also how I love you, Sweet Savior.



Elizabeth said...

Well, your beautiful post made me sob. I so understand how you feel. Our babies grow up too quickly, and sometimes it's hard to believe so much time has passed. I look at mine and am in awe of their precious personalities and all of their little quirks. They make me laugh every single day, and nothing gives me joy the way my kids do. God made them just for our family. I wish every mommy liked their kids as much as I like mine!

p.s. I think you should have just ONE more:)

Sincerely Anna said...

I'd be sobbing too on the eve of the third birthday, it's such a bittersweet moment like you said. You're a wonderful mom and that was a beautiful prayer. Hope tomorrow and Saturday are magical.

Michele said...

Every good and perfect gift is from above. Aren't you so grateful that He doesn't make us earn them - we never could! Never lose this taste of wonder for what He has done for us.

Can't you imagine Him looking down at Jesus and smiling, "That's my boy and he's amazing."

Sweet friend, they are so blessed to have you to mother them - like nobody else could.