Saturday, October 30, 2010

Update from JKM

So Wilson is still doing amazing things.

I don’t know yet if/when I will be getting surgery, chemo, radiation, nothing, or any combination of those options. I got the pathology report from my prior surgery and learned that Wilson should be slow growing but is incurable. The average survival after being diagnosed is 7-10 years so I have already lived twice that since the tumor was first diagnosed.

If I had only lived 10 years I would not have gone to the Academy or medical school, found a job I love, married a woman more amazing than I ever could have imagined, or been blessed with 4 beautiful and unique children. Praise God for his indescribable gifts!

This time is a little stressful (understatement) and it isn’t a lot of fun, but it is still a time of great joy. I have long since believed in Jesus, served him, and desired to be obedient to him. I have loved him but for the first time I am truly in love with him.
“I love you, O Lord, my strength. The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.” Psalm 18:1-2.
My daily quiet time with the Lord has never been so fulfilling or inspiring. It is no longer a daily duty but the highlight of my day. Each time I read the word, even a few verses, I am filled with the Holy Spirit and my heart is transformed. Verses that I have read 20+ times have an entirely new power.
“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” Galatians 2:20

The greatest part of this whole ordeal is watching the Holy Spirit spread to the rest of my family. Sabrina and the kids have grown as our family becomes more focused on the eternal and less on the temporary. The joy it brings me is indescribable and I can only imagine the joy our Heavenly Father has when he watches us grow closer to him.

I am dying.  But so is everyone else, the difference is that I know I am dying. I also know that I no longer want to live for myself or even for other people. I want to live for Christ alone and Wilson will not take my life until God has completed the work he has for me to do. I would rather live for 5 more minutes in unity with Christ than 50 more years without him.
“Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.” John 6:68.

To all those of you are praying for me, fasting for me, and sharing your words of encouragement I can not thank you enough. You are an incredible blessing that fills my heart with joy. May God bless you for your love and support!



The 5 Rohrers said...

Praying for you all!

Elizabeth said...

This post was so encouraging to me. We all need the reminder to live for Christ alone. Our time here is short, and we need to make the best of every second we have.

Toby and Rebecca said...

Wow. Thank you for this glimpse into your heart and for sharing the truth that we all need to embrace. It has been such a blessing to share time with your family over the past couple of weeks and I love the way you all "work". While so many things don't make sense in this, we know that God is good. So good. And we pray that His spirit would continue to fill you and pull you closer to Him each day.

Love- the Lees

Susan said...

I'm sorry to say I haven't read your blog in quite some time, I just caught up on the last year or so. I just want to let you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you all.

Heidi and Andy said...

You all are so very loved and treasured. I'm praying especially for your precious kiddos right now (and of course you too!) that you will give them the answers that the Lord has for them during this very confusing time. We love you so much and I'm sorry that we all don't say it to one another more often. Before I get too mushy, I'm going to sign off. Love, Heidi Thompson and family