Saturday, May 28, 2011

And we are off to our next adventure

The day has finally come.
My last wake up in our Texas house.
And it’s just as hard as I thought it would be.

We have been here for 5 years.
Half our marriage.
When we moved here, I had 2 boys that were almost 2 and just turned four. My husband was in medical school.
We leave today with an almost 9 year old, almost 7 year old, and twin sisters who turned 4 this month. If you would have told me that while we were moving in, I would have told you, you were crazy. Now I’m the crazy one.

My girls were born here.
Three of my kids were potty trained here.
My boys both learned to ride bikes in our cul-de-sac.
We’ve built tree houses, learned to shoot BB guns, had our first sleep over, had many birthday parties – had many parties.

Three of my kids used high chairs here. Now, no one does.
We’ve had a lot of good times and some really hard ones.
And the one thing we have had all along the way, are some amazing friends.

Amazing, amazing friends.
Friends I am so sad to leave.
Words really can’t express how sad I am leaving these friends.

It’s funny, people always say how outgoing I am and how I make a ton of friends everywhere I go, but the truth is that while I may make new friends, it’s really hard for me to let go of friendships. Whenever I leave, I’m never comforted by the fact that I will make new friends. I want to bring the ones I have with me.

But I can’t.

So, while I am sad about leaving this house that I have loved, that has so many memories that I have loved, I’m most sad about leaving the people here. People who have helped me while I was so sick with the twins, brought meals after they were born, celebrated milestones, prayed with me when I felt completely filled with hopelessness, helped push me to be a better athlete, mother, friend, wife, and child of God.

It’s been a good season. With really awesome people. This was a really fun chapter in my life. Like it or not, I’m off to a new adventure. Wonder what God has in store for me next….

Sweet Jesus, thank you so much for our time here. Thank you for so many sweet memories and amazing friends. Please be with us, right now, in this transition. Help me to be in the moment, not reveling in the past or dreading the future. I want to be here, present with my family, thankful for the memories we are making right now. Please help the kids as they move from their home and friends. I hate the confusion and pain in their eyes. Give me a positive attitude and encouraging words. Jesus, help this to be a smooth, fun transition with lots of memories. Please go ahead of us and prepare the way for friendship and ministry. I love that you love me so much you will do that. Help me to remember that you will provide what I need, when I need it. It’s funny, but every time we move I’m so sad and sure that it can’t get any better. You always prove me wrong. I think you are secretly trying to get me over my fear of heaven. Just when I think it can’t get any better…

(Found this on my computer and it made me smile!)

1 comment:

Sincerely Anna said...

Sending love your way! Though the transition will have ups and downs, I pray that you sense God's working in your lives. Can't wait to keep reading!

Really wish you were moving back to Maryland, though. I just had to say that.